I am

I am not exactly lost but I don’t feel found either. I seem to be on the path that isn’t dark but it’s not light-filled by any stretch. I’ve come to the conclusion that it is a period of one step forward then five unnecessary steps sideways. Feeling old things and instead of completely losing

I am still here..

Locked inside of us is the need to reach an equilibrium. A safe place to feel. Yet I fear for some that journey is lost in the pain. The pain of growing, constantly searching. For something that we know exists but yet we know it not. I believe that the universe in its complexity and

I am still..

Here, with many questions. Why? Because I am over 40 but most of all because I need an outlet. The problems of always hurting and doing most of everything alone. I am blessed enough to have a service animal. She not only helps me through my episodes, she really is my only companion.

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton